Depression

Ok, so my last post was short. I was really struggling. I was battling a depression episode. It was not fun. I am better now. I was struggling with things in my marriage. My husband and I seem to have a difference in communication. He is a private person and does not like to talk about things much. I, on the other hand, like to be informed of things. I also believe that I define my self worth in him. When he is upset with me, my thoughts automatically start going dark. I start thinking I  am not good enough or he would be better of if I wasn't here. I, of course, know that isn't true, but that is where my thought go. I then began to have a battle in my mind of what I know and what I what I am thinking. It is very tiring and draining. During this time, I was blessed to be able to call a dear friend who pointed me back in the right direction. So through prayer and talking with my friend and my husband, things are much better.

Depression is hard! Not everyone understand it. Not everyone goes through the same type of depression. Some only have it for a season, and some struggle with it everyday of their life. All I can say is to please pray for those you know struggling with it because they need it. 

I began reading a devotional by Charles H. Spurgeon titled Morning and Evening. I have enjoyed it. It has helped me keep my focus on Christ. I have also been working on keeping things more organized. That way I do not feel so overwhelmed all the time. I am still not there, but I am working on it. I also had to make the decision to not spend so much time on the computer checking email and going to facebook. I allowed those things to take more time and attention then they should. Keeping my focus on Christ is the best thing I can do for my depression. I pray others do the same.

Blessings!